We had recently come home from the hospital with a little baby Steve who was shining like a star. No, he did not smile yet (little babies start smiling as they grow). But he was very cute, a tiny one with only one strange thing: a tube protruding from his nose. Steve could not eat by himself. His sucking reflex was gone due to the special therapy that suppressed his birth convulsions. Never mind - I thought. I will teach him how to eat by spoon! He will be the smallest baby that knows how to eat with a spoon :). The idea made me smile. It was an adventure for a young girl/newly-made-mother, that never gave up and here she faced a challenge that was easy to overcome. And we started. Steve would swallow his milk given to him with a tiny spoon. 6-7 times a day. Each feeding - 20 minutes. Then - sleep. (Both: the mother and the son). Feeding was tiresome, but it was real. No more tube in his teeny nose and no need to use that ugly syringe. 
The boy grew slow, he would remain very light for many many months. He would keep silent, and started smiling back at us when he turned only 6 month. That was ok for his mother and father. They were delighted to see his occasional sincere smile, no voice heard yet. Eating still the same - by spoon and milk only. I prayed a lot. I knew there was something wrong, but does it matter if Jesus is with you?
Once a friend of mine took us to a pediatrician. He was a well-known doctor with many excellent references. (Famous!) He was old as well which indicated his experience and expertise. So we went. An appointment was at his office, rather a fancy one. My friend was next to me. The doctor examined Steve's eyes. Then he said: I recommend you give him away to the orphanage and have another NORMAL child.
I just smiled and went out. At home I found myself in resentment: How dare he tell me like that about my son? HOW? I know one day when Jesus comes Steve will walk, and speak, and laugh, how can I give him away? How can I reject my son? How could Jesus reject us, crippled, sinful, blind, grumpy, lame, stuttering? There was no question to leave my son in the orphanage or no, but a big question till now flies in my head: How can a PHYSICIAN propose such a solution? There is no doubt about God's love to us. It is shining through the life of Jesus, that came to earth to show that He did not give us away to have better children, but he came to heal us from our sins. Though a 'doctor' has been telling Him till today: Leave this children, give them to the orphanage, go make new ones to be sure you won't have troubles with them. This is the reality of life.Why did not I want to leave my child?
